Goodbye 2009.

♥

Put your hands together.

We wrote a prelude to our own fairytale.

 

Just seconds ago, I was surfing the internet,

tapping my fingers on the keyboard, watching the clock,

listening to the grumbles of my stomach, flipping the pages of a book,

and, reality strikes!

In less than 48 hours, 

we'll be ushering ourselves into a WHOLE NEW YEAR. 2010.

Unbelievable as it seems, but yes, a year has passed,

and yet, another year is about to unfold itself.

Moving through, 2009 is coming to an ABRUPT end.
Oh GOSH! TOO QUICK,perhaps?

However, despite the goodbyes and farewells, bad and good times, bitter and sweet memories, new challenges and experiences,

I'm still very grateful for all the people I've met (you know who you are),for all the memories I've had and for all the lessons and values learned throughout the year 2009. 
An unforgettable year indeed!

Anyway, I came up with a few new year resolutions,

and, I hope that it won't be just ALL SAY AND NO DO, next year.

(unlike this year, none of them were successful. bummer.)

I'm working on a few already, and really hope that I'll stick through it till the end of next year before 2011 unfolds.(:

Aren't you tired of coming up with RESOLUTIONS AFTER RESOLUTIONS only to find yourself completely failing to abide to it??

Well, I am. Hence, no more empty words,promises and whatsoever, yes? *big smiles*

Every year simply signifies a different chapter of my life,

and, this year is of no exception. (:

I'm ready for 2010.

ARE YOU, love?! ;)

♥

Strange.

So, Christmas is over. 

Time flies. 

I kid you not.

♥ ♥ ♥

 

 

 

Christmas (:

Life is a beautiful struggle.

star-gazing with the person you love is amazing, yes?

 a random thought.

IGNORE,please.

Here's a lil' something I came up with in a rush. 

You see, I was bored. 

Not what I expected, but, I guess it turned out alright lah. (:

I watched you from a distance, 

And quietly wished that the intimacy we once had was just a dream,

These feelings deep within is slowly surfacing, and silently killing,

Every little thing about you seems so surreal,

You were a gift from above, or so I thought.

I had the chance to hold on, to fight, to love,

But, I chose otherwise.

And now, you've gone your own way,

without me, but her. 

I could feel nothing, but the heart shattered into infinite pieces,

Pretense was the next best thing I could do, 

I smiled when I'm sad, I laughed when I'm hurting, I danced when I'm numb,

I tried my hardest to suppress every emotion I had,

Because I know there was no second chance,

No looking back and revive what we once had,

I have to be strong, to prove you wrong,

But to no avail, I'm lost without you. I'm drowning with no air.

I'm falling even deeper than before,

And now, remorseful as I am, I'm running.

Not towards, but away. 

away from you, away from everyone, away from this city.

I silently pray that this story will be a dream; 

A dream that will come to an end, 

A dream that needs to be erased and forgotten,

A dream will always remain as one.

It is then that I will stop running and live again.  

HEY! 

how bout becoming a journalist? not too bad, eh? (: 

nah. I JOKE. ;P

ANYWAY,

IT'S CHRISTMAS EVE, EVERYONE!

EXCITED??! (:

WELL,HAVE A JOLLY MOLLY WOLLY CHRISTMAS! 

hmm. what is CHRISTMAS to you? 

 

ENJOY! 

XOXO, 

mell.  

tis' the season to be jolly, 

fa la la la la la la la la.

Updates!

 Howdy! :)

oh my, look at all the dust accumulating over here. 

Just shows how bad I've abandoned the blog. BOO! :/

 Sorry. 

Been busy with uni apps, accommodation, bank acc, medical check ups, visa, etc.

totally robbed my time away from blogging. 

Fallen ill on saturday as well, was down with fever, sore throat and flu..

Not good. Not good at all. :(

but hey! 

good news is, I'm back! and, trying to blog. :)

So yeap. 

I'm almost done with everything except for booking the air ticket and settling the accommodation in aussie. 

anyone kind enough to advice me on places to live in adelaide(preferably near City Easy Campus)?! 

I'm literally dying here trying to search the sites for agents, landlords etc, just to get a damn place. 

HELP?!!?!

Okay. 

Some proper updates now, perhaps. (:

 

Camp photo!! 

too many people, to tiny. 

Try Spotting meeee! ;)

 Besides the picture, God has truly been great, 

and will continue to be. (:

Moving on,

I Headed over to MOS the very same day I came back from camp. 

Was physically and mentally tired, 

but, Tanya insisted that I should go and accompany her. 

So, I did. It was awesome. :)

Met some great people all the way up North, the crazy penangnite boys. 

Real fun. (:

 

  

We've done too many things together ever since we were a kid! 

  

  

  

  

 Heels. (:

  

 toilet breakkkk. :) :)

  

  

  

  

 Mun leon and Jang Heng, the penangnites. (:

  

with Jeremy Cheah and Mun Leon.

  

 L~R: (front) Mun Leon, Tanya, Dorie.

(back) Me, Corey, Faris, Jeremy.

  

 Sweatyyy.

 

the penangnites, except for faris, the emotionless dude. HAHA.

 

 

 (:

  

  

  

  

  

 Mun Leon! 

i shall not reveal his darkest secret here. :P

 

 this piccie is priceless. 

He claims that he was drugged that night at MOS and not Drunk. 

Lost his memory that night. -.-

 

left MOS at 3:30 am, then cleaned the drunk and drugged jang heng up, 

then headed for mamak near Taylors.

Went over to Sunway, bump around in Jeremy Teoh's apartment till 6 something. 

it was an awesome night and morning spent with em'. 

Lotsa fun,teasing and laughter. :)

Then, On saturday!

planned another outing with the penangnites as they were leaving the next day. 

Longest time I've driven before. 

Was out of house by 11:30 in the morning,

waited in my car till 12 for Dorie to join me, 

then we drove to Hartamas, pick Tanya up around 12:30 pm, 

then headed over to KL sentral to pick the boys up.

THEY WERE 2 HOURS LATE! O.o

we got lost on the way to sunway, as we needed to pick the other 2 boys up. 

it started pouring, reached sunway around 3.

then, got stuck in the jam for another hour as we drove to midvalley because dorie got lost in mentari.. :P

so, we only manage to reach midv at 4pm. O.o

I could've reached penang within that period of time, yeah?! 

but, was worth it lar. :)

 

  

 toilet break in the Gardens. ;)

 

a group picture w/o sunny before i left. 

a group piccie w/o me because i left early. 

fell sick that very night. 

they visited murni without mee. 

arghh. jealous. :(

but, glad the penangnites had fun! 

Apart from all that, hey! isn't Christmas just around the corner? (:

so, there. 

BLESSED CHRISTMAS in advance! :)

till then.

love,

mell.

A testimony..

Hello there! (:

I'm hoooooooooooommmmmmmmmeeeeeee!

and, camp was goood. :D

Yeah.

So, i didn't have the guts to testify about how God has blessed me during camp earlier,

guess I'll just have to mention it here.

(and perhaps hope someone does visit the blog and witness the greatness of God) *smiles*

Indeed, God is good and He is the provider. 

Well, some of you prolly know that SAM results was released online yesterday.

And, thankfully, someone had an iphone that I can borrow from to check the results during camp.

Results was OKAY lah.

But, i felt disappointed nonetheless. Expected better, but oh well.

Guess it was God's way of bringing me closer to Him.

oh, I can tell you that it was worth it.

Yeap. Was feeling really down that morning because I still wasn't satisfied with the results,

and i just needed a couple of points to achieve the entry requirement of getting into aussie.

There, I thought my aussie's dreams was shattered. gone down the drain, perhaps.

I wept, and wept and continuously wept during the morning session,

and I really thank God for great leaders who prayed and comforted me.

I believed God was using them to speak to me because I was feeling completely lost,

not knowing what to do, and what my next step should and will be.

I needed guidance and direction, I needed to know God's plans and purposes for me in my life,

I really needed a revelation from above. 

After the session,

we went back to our room, and decided to take a nap.

My eyes was too swollen that I could barely see.

Just as I was about to sleep, my phone rang. 

"who could this be?" I thought. (it was an unknown number displayed on the screen, by the way.)

I answered, and was dumbfounded when I heard the news!

"UNISA has given you an unconditional offer for Bachelor of Pharmacy. They want you!" the soft-spoken lady said.

isn't that GREAT news?
He does wonders in YOURS and MY life, 
and He is forever awesome. (:

you know, GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME.

and, that is the fact.

so yeap.

SAYYYYYY HELLLLOOOOO TO KANGAROO LAND! :)

Emerge.

 

Packed. (:

and, All ready for camp! 

 till then.

mell.

Peculiar.

I had weird dreams of robbers,evil spirits and locks yesterday night.

Nothing scary. but, i think it was kinda hilarious. ;)

 

Simply because.

Embrace that. 

it always takes two and not one.

stop living in denial, my friend.

Flashback.

I sit watching as the hands of the clock ticks by. I could vaguely remember the memories; sad and happy ones, that passes me by this year. Did it all happen too quickly? Or was it just an excuse to escape the truth? Has it (the dreams, ambitions, wishes) all gone down the drain, or been shattered unknowingly? Boy, I really don’t know.

With that very little intention to find my inner self once again, it truly was of no help.

Anyways, it’s EXACTLY one month ever since finals ended. Speak about fast. This is really fast, time just whooshed by within a split second, and before you know it, we’ll be ushering ourselves into a new year. 2010.

2009 had served me well.  Sort of.

It was a totally new ball game in the beginning of this year, to begin with.

It was like a new life with a total change of environment, new people, new lecturers, new rules, new syllabus, new lecturers, new responsibility, new everything. There were countless things that I’ve gone through that I felt have actually in one way or another molded me into a more mature person.

It was this year that I learned how to stand up on my own feet, unable to depend on anyone but myself to complete a task. No more being spoon fed by the teachers like we used to in high school, no more last minute studying and expect to excel in any exams. DON’T EVEN TRY. BEEN THERE, EXPERIENCED THAT. NOT GOOD. It was also the year where individual assignments and presentations are equally as important as our written exams. I’ve learned how to endure the endless sleepless nights in order to carry out and complete any and EVERY assignment given to me.

Being a SAM student, I also had to prepare for ongoing class tests, directed investigation, so on and so forth. To make matters worse, due dates for assignments, power point presentations, class tests are usually lined up one after another and would take up the whole week.

******EVERY WEEK WAS LIKE EXAM WEEK. TORTURE.

Can you imagine how happy I was whenever FRIDAY comes to an end? It’s like you’re in this situation, you were out shopping, and saw this really cute top displayed on the mannequin and you fell in love with it instantly. You could totally hear it calling out to you and to your surprise mum happily purchased the top for you which she usually doesn't.

That feeling is beyond words. Indescribable.

So, T.G.I.F. , RIGHT?

Hmmm. You know when you were still a lil’ kid, you’d spend all the time in the world watching Disney channel, admiring the college kids who seemed to enjoy college life and couldn’t care less about anything else but eat, sleep, party, get  to know more people, gossip, bla bla bla….

Then, you thought to yourself, ‘Why can’t I be older? I wish I was older. I wanna get into college! College is just SO COOL. NO UGLY UNIFORMS, NO STUPID RULES, NO MORE TYING/CLIPPING HAIR, *endless complaints*’

Does that ring a bell? Well, it does, for me. I was that kid who fantasized to grow up soon enough, so that I can get my ass out of school, and get into college and perhaps have all the fun in the world.

Little did I know, I was wrong.  SO wrong.

If anyone out there thinks that that college is where you can have more fun and freedom, THINK AGAIN.

No, I’m not shutting whoever you are off, neither am I being a fun sucker, but sometimes, it takes an outsider who’ve experienced it herself to actually knock some senses into you.

Okay. I’m not here to complain about how stressful SAM had been, but more of the things and experiences I’ve learned and gone through for the past year. It’s a way of remembering the bad and good times that have dawned upon me, YEAH?

So, yeah. College was not that great, but I guess the things I’ve learned throughout are definitely worthwhile. There’s always an expensive lesson to learn in every difficulty. Bear that in mind.

So, what have I gained?

Plenty, I tell you. In college, you’re sort of exposed to the real world, where you get to meet people of different age, race, personality, characters, etc. This is important because it teaches you how to deal with them. Besides, I’ve learned to be a lil’ more independent too. (: (: and perhaps a lil’ less crazy. :/

Speaking of which, I haven’t gone hyper for a LOOOOONGGGG time. That’s a good thing. Kinda shows that I don’t consume that much sugar anymore.

WoooOkay. Why am I running out of topic??!

 Umm. Where was I, again? Heh. ;) sorry.

 Mind got diverted.

Well, I also manage to get over my nervousness and learned how to deal with stress too! Definitely a good start, eh? J Furthermore, college also helped prepare me for uni life which in a way is good because I definitely do not want to feel like a lost bird when I’m doing my degree next year! (:

Apart from that, I’m grateful for some good lecturers that helped me throughout this rough journey too. Without them, I’d prolly fail to complete SAM. Not that serious lah. But.. ahhhh… You get my drift. :D

There, there. Getting bored of me ranting about what college was like for me? :P

Long story short, I’m OFFICIALLY DONE WITH SAM a.k.a SELF ABUSE MATRICULATION (goodness knows who came up with this. Heh. )

Of course there were other things that happened throughout the year. My life’s not that dull LAH. I hope.

*cross fingers*

Well, throughout the year, I’ve met tremendous people in my life who have stuck with me through thick (mostly, my complaints) and thin (my stupid moments). You know, although it was just a mere 11 months, but it was THE BEST THING that has happened this year. (: You guys have been a great blessing one way or another, and word can never express my gratefulness towards each one of you. Just, thank you so much. Thank you G6 for loving me and accepting me for who I really am. Thank you. *curtsy* HAHA.

Jokes aside.

 I really wanna take this opportunity to thank each and every one of you for making a part of my life beautiful and memorable.

Thank you sooo sooo soooo much aaron lim, andrea tan, ang xin jian, bryan lye, Carmen wong, Cheryl  may, chong shwen nee, Fiona goh, Grace chen, Hon yu fai, Iggy Liew, Joanna Yii, Justin Ling, Keshantini, Khoo Lay Tin, Lenna Lai, Ng Hui Mien, Shivanya, Sonia Sin, Soo Yong Hui, Teh Hui Han, Ting Hui Wen, Tio Hui Ching, Wan Guo Tung, Yeo Choa Rong and Yeo Hui Leng.

Thank you for making me a G6-ian. I’m REALLY PROUD to be one.

You guys ROCK SOCKS. (:

Actually, the main purpose of today’s post was to remind myself and everyone else (if anyone is reading this) that TIME IS FLYING BY EVEN FASTER THAN BEFORE.

Well, like I said earlier, it’s been EXACTLY one month since finals ended, and I totally wasted it.

And, you know what??!  RESULTS ARE OUT NEXT WEEK. (SORRY. I DON’T MEAN TO RUIN YOUR MOOD,SAM BUDDIES)

IS THAT FAST OR WHAT?

I was just beginning to enjoy the holidays, and now, they’re taking it back. ALL of them.

I can barely breathe. I mean, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?

It was just ONE MONTH ago, I was sitting for my last paper, Chemistry and now here they are, the worse part of being a SAM student, the results. What a nightmare.

Uhm. I think I’m getting too emotional. 

I better get going before I lose control. ;)

Lastly,

YES. ONE MONTH ALREADY LAH,GUYS!

Till then.

Love,Mell.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,ARTHUR BANANA!