A heavy heart.

I pretended to be strong, 

to hold on when all things seems to have gone wrong, 

I tried to stay away,

so there's not another goodbye to say.

If only they knew what was stirring inside of me, 

If only I had the courage to gather all my thoughts and feelings,

to express just how much they mean to me.

I know I've been a letdown lately, 

 I was running away, hiding myself, and trying to mend that broken heart, 

I silently reminisced of all the memories we've had,

I quietly appreciate all the efforts made.

Now, I'm hoping they would understand, 

just how hard it is to bid farewell.

just how difficult it is to let go, 

to turn away and pretend that everything's gonna be okay. 

♥