Flashback.

I sit watching as the hands of the clock ticks by. I could vaguely remember the memories; sad and happy ones, that passes me by this year. Did it all happen too quickly? Or was it just an excuse to escape the truth? Has it (the dreams, ambitions, wishes) all gone down the drain, or been shattered unknowingly? Boy, I really don’t know.

With that very little intention to find my inner self once again, it truly was of no help.

Anyways, it’s EXACTLY one month ever since finals ended. Speak about fast. This is really fast, time just whooshed by within a split second, and before you know it, we’ll be ushering ourselves into a new year. 2010.

2009 had served me well.  Sort of.

It was a totally new ball game in the beginning of this year, to begin with.

It was like a new life with a total change of environment, new people, new lecturers, new rules, new syllabus, new lecturers, new responsibility, new everything. There were countless things that I’ve gone through that I felt have actually in one way or another molded me into a more mature person.

It was this year that I learned how to stand up on my own feet, unable to depend on anyone but myself to complete a task. No more being spoon fed by the teachers like we used to in high school, no more last minute studying and expect to excel in any exams. DON’T EVEN TRY. BEEN THERE, EXPERIENCED THAT. NOT GOOD. It was also the year where individual assignments and presentations are equally as important as our written exams. I’ve learned how to endure the endless sleepless nights in order to carry out and complete any and EVERY assignment given to me.

Being a SAM student, I also had to prepare for ongoing class tests, directed investigation, so on and so forth. To make matters worse, due dates for assignments, power point presentations, class tests are usually lined up one after another and would take up the whole week.

******EVERY WEEK WAS LIKE EXAM WEEK. TORTURE.

Can you imagine how happy I was whenever FRIDAY comes to an end? It’s like you’re in this situation, you were out shopping, and saw this really cute top displayed on the mannequin and you fell in love with it instantly. You could totally hear it calling out to you and to your surprise mum happily purchased the top for you which she usually doesn't.

That feeling is beyond words. Indescribable.

So, T.G.I.F. , RIGHT?

Hmmm. You know when you were still a lil’ kid, you’d spend all the time in the world watching Disney channel, admiring the college kids who seemed to enjoy college life and couldn’t care less about anything else but eat, sleep, party, get  to know more people, gossip, bla bla bla….

Then, you thought to yourself, ‘Why can’t I be older? I wish I was older. I wanna get into college! College is just SO COOL. NO UGLY UNIFORMS, NO STUPID RULES, NO MORE TYING/CLIPPING HAIR, *endless complaints*’

Does that ring a bell? Well, it does, for me. I was that kid who fantasized to grow up soon enough, so that I can get my ass out of school, and get into college and perhaps have all the fun in the world.

Little did I know, I was wrong.  SO wrong.

If anyone out there thinks that that college is where you can have more fun and freedom, THINK AGAIN.

No, I’m not shutting whoever you are off, neither am I being a fun sucker, but sometimes, it takes an outsider who’ve experienced it herself to actually knock some senses into you.

Okay. I’m not here to complain about how stressful SAM had been, but more of the things and experiences I’ve learned and gone through for the past year. It’s a way of remembering the bad and good times that have dawned upon me, YEAH?

So, yeah. College was not that great, but I guess the things I’ve learned throughout are definitely worthwhile. There’s always an expensive lesson to learn in every difficulty. Bear that in mind.

So, what have I gained?

Plenty, I tell you. In college, you’re sort of exposed to the real world, where you get to meet people of different age, race, personality, characters, etc. This is important because it teaches you how to deal with them. Besides, I’ve learned to be a lil’ more independent too. (: (: and perhaps a lil’ less crazy. :/

Speaking of which, I haven’t gone hyper for a LOOOOONGGGG time. That’s a good thing. Kinda shows that I don’t consume that much sugar anymore.

WoooOkay. Why am I running out of topic??!

 Umm. Where was I, again? Heh. ;) sorry.

 Mind got diverted.

Well, I also manage to get over my nervousness and learned how to deal with stress too! Definitely a good start, eh? J Furthermore, college also helped prepare me for uni life which in a way is good because I definitely do not want to feel like a lost bird when I’m doing my degree next year! (:

Apart from that, I’m grateful for some good lecturers that helped me throughout this rough journey too. Without them, I’d prolly fail to complete SAM. Not that serious lah. But.. ahhhh… You get my drift. :D

There, there. Getting bored of me ranting about what college was like for me? :P

Long story short, I’m OFFICIALLY DONE WITH SAM a.k.a SELF ABUSE MATRICULATION (goodness knows who came up with this. Heh. )

Of course there were other things that happened throughout the year. My life’s not that dull LAH. I hope.

*cross fingers*

Well, throughout the year, I’ve met tremendous people in my life who have stuck with me through thick (mostly, my complaints) and thin (my stupid moments). You know, although it was just a mere 11 months, but it was THE BEST THING that has happened this year. (: You guys have been a great blessing one way or another, and word can never express my gratefulness towards each one of you. Just, thank you so much. Thank you G6 for loving me and accepting me for who I really am. Thank you. *curtsy* HAHA.

Jokes aside.

 I really wanna take this opportunity to thank each and every one of you for making a part of my life beautiful and memorable.

Thank you sooo sooo soooo much aaron lim, andrea tan, ang xin jian, bryan lye, Carmen wong, Cheryl  may, chong shwen nee, Fiona goh, Grace chen, Hon yu fai, Iggy Liew, Joanna Yii, Justin Ling, Keshantini, Khoo Lay Tin, Lenna Lai, Ng Hui Mien, Shivanya, Sonia Sin, Soo Yong Hui, Teh Hui Han, Ting Hui Wen, Tio Hui Ching, Wan Guo Tung, Yeo Choa Rong and Yeo Hui Leng.

Thank you for making me a G6-ian. I’m REALLY PROUD to be one.

You guys ROCK SOCKS. (:

Actually, the main purpose of today’s post was to remind myself and everyone else (if anyone is reading this) that TIME IS FLYING BY EVEN FASTER THAN BEFORE.

Well, like I said earlier, it’s been EXACTLY one month since finals ended, and I totally wasted it.

And, you know what??!  RESULTS ARE OUT NEXT WEEK. (SORRY. I DON’T MEAN TO RUIN YOUR MOOD,SAM BUDDIES)

IS THAT FAST OR WHAT?

I was just beginning to enjoy the holidays, and now, they’re taking it back. ALL of them.

I can barely breathe. I mean, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?

It was just ONE MONTH ago, I was sitting for my last paper, Chemistry and now here they are, the worse part of being a SAM student, the results. What a nightmare.

Uhm. I think I’m getting too emotional. 

I better get going before I lose control. ;)

Lastly,

YES. ONE MONTH ALREADY LAH,GUYS!

Till then.

Love,Mell.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,ARTHUR BANANA!