Over and out.

As i was glancing through Yu fai's blog (click for a clearer understanding),

I stumbled upon his latest,most recent post entitled, "tearing me apart".

oh boy.

I took one look at it, and, asked myself, " What have I gotten myself into,seriously?"

The amount of work is more than enough to take up all my free time (not that I have any more free time left) and kill every living cell in me.

Indeed. South Australian Matriculation is no child's play.

Every single sheet of paper counts. You screw up one, and, you'll be in living hell.

No. I am not exaggerating.

If only there is an additional of 5 hours a day.

Everything would be short, sweet and simple, yes? :)

One more thing, before I go.

Vulgarity.

(this has got nothing to do with SAM,by the way.)

According to Aaron Lim,

I have been swearing quite a bit lately. [ Ping? You have got to stop me. I don't want history to repeat itself, once more. :( thats if you still remember that incident, five years back. Do you? :/]

If this prolongs, it will eventually develop into a habit.

A habit so rotten, that would prolly take ages to break away from.

Its time to shake it off, and start over.

oh yes, I will prove to you, Mr.Aaron Lim! :P

On a random note, we celebrated Fiona's belated birthday today! (pictures soon...)

and, and, and.. lately, Hoodies have become my thing. :P

Oh-so-warm-and-comfy.

Of eyebags and acnes.

BOOHOO!

You never really cared.

"I'm sitting for a physics test tomorrow. "

But, guess what people?

I left my Physics books in church.

YES! including Mr.Yap's notes.

Shoot me dead. :'(

In desperate need of a miracle.

I'll prove you wrong.

I know I have failed you.

I know I have disappointed you.

But,You've never failed to put on a smile and a compassionate tone,

"Don't give up now. Try harder . Persevere.I have always believed in you."

You constantly pushed me to try harder in a way that I would never have imagine,

I know I have failed to make you proud this time.

But, give me this one chance to make up for all my mistakes.
Give me this one chance to prove you wrong.

I am still who I am. The girl with goals,ambitions and dreams.
I promise I’ll change for the better.
I promise I’ll change.

you have my word.

Running out of time?

It will go on.

As I was blog hopping awhile ago, I realized how everyone is fighting against time.
And, as I was browsing through my planner, it hit me hard that there really aren’t many days that we can actually sit down,sip a cup of coffee and perhaps take some time off from assignments, exams and college itself. One after another, the workloads are beginning to pile up. If we regard high school as a lifeless and stressful phase of life, I personally think college is very much worse. This definitely doesn’t give us a reason to procrastinate even more, yes?

Hrmmm.. Well, just to make this post look a little longer, allow me to rant a lil' on how I’ll be spending my time for the next week, can? (:

Monday: ~Physics Test. (GREAT. With the amount of attention I have been paying in class, I very much doubt I’ll do well. :/ HELP?!)
Tuesday: ~Draft for ESL. (How is it possible to write out a draft of 2000 words, and more than 20 pages on gender selection of babies? You tell me. )
~Study for LAN?! (*ponders*)
Wednesday: ~LAN exam. (I just want to at least pass this paper, please?)
Thursday: ~Issue analysis. (Adolescence. Kohlberg’s theory. Elkind Theory.Truancy.Papaya? Oops. Ppfffft. I mean, Papalia. :P)
~ECA day. HIV awareness? AIDS? Red and Green,people!

Friday: ~Draft for ESL.

Overloaded.

Forlorn Hope.

Speak about fate.

YOU.

I met her half a decade ago in high school. We started off as strangers, but as time goes by, we began to develop a very strong friendship between us. Year after year, our friendship grew like a blooming flower, we thought this bond we have will never break apart. But, I guess we were both wrong. Things began to dwindle during the last few years of high school. And even now, despite being in the same institution, we hardly met or spoke to one another. We took no initiative to relive this friendship we have, and we have totally put aside the catching up process once and for all. Many a times, I thought to myself, are we not trying hard enough to relive this friendship we once had? Or are we just plain ignorant about all that is going on? Have we been too busy to take some time out for one another?

People come and go. Some just decides to stay a little longer, because they feel belonged. But, seriously, how many really stay for the friendship and the love? As life goes on, people tend to become very picky in mostly everything, ranging from the type of food we consumed, to the kind of friends we mix with. Perhaps, we will never really know who are true friends are.

We've given in so much, but received nothing in return.

NesLo..

Oh boy..

Its 5:14 a.m. now. :(

and, I am absolutely CLUELESS about Kohlberg's theory. :(

help?!?!

All the very best March intake candidates!

"Its time you get your focus right."

The focus and determination is slowly disappearing.

I'm disturbed by the fact that things aren't going my way.

And, I come to realize, if this prolongs, I'm far from impossible to achieve my desires.

What has gone wrong,seriously?

No. The hormones are not to be blame,for sure. :(

It's time to get my focus right before the distractions decides to take the lead,yes?

I'm not emo. (:

I just needed some motivation,

thats all.

Of Pandas...

Howdy! (:

I would like to dedicate this very post to Yong Hui.. C:

Babe, Go ahead and INDULGE!

Hui, their eyes are somewhat unique,yes?.. (:

I wonder what will happen if u wake up the next morning, and have eyes like theirs. ;)

so LIKE YOU.

trying to 'seduce' the male panda.

seriously. check out its sexy pose. (:

Doesn't this reminds you of something? someone,perhaps? heh. (:

their butts are FLAT. like YOURS! hee..

i joke i joke. ;)



awwww..

Looks like I'm the ONLY one who persevered through this project eh? :D

decided to check out about pandas, hence, THIS. (:

haha.. omg. Never knew pandas were that cute!

Looking forward to see a real life HUMAN panda in 4 hours! *winks*

its been a long night.

I swear I'll make u tear.. C:

oh boy.

This solely reminds me of the "I'm sensitive. Please ignore me." joke.

I'm gonna miss you soo badly. you do know that, don't you? :(

heh. (:

pigtails.

you. hui

you and fai.

we miss you la! :'(

You are letting go of me.. :(

no more hugs.

Hui. yours. mine

Bio Lab.. :)

*hyperventilates*
I still can't believe you are leaving ME. US! G6! :(

promise me, u'll keep in touch? (:

I'm gonna miss you..

although its been a short while,

but,it will make a difference.

yes,indeed.

we grew on each other.

i am gonna miss you.

Whatever happened to "Friends forever" and "besties for life"?

Your words, sharper than any double edged sword, is piercing right through my heart.

Sometimes I wonder,

where do I really stand, as a friend, in YOUR life?

" The ones closest to you are the ones who hurt you the deepest. "

This friendship we have, is on the verge of breaking.

confused.

Green Evolution.. :)

performance at INTI

Synthetic. C:

oh boy.

i miss dancing with the crew.

The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle.

Looking back,

All those sleepless nights, endless trips to the library and countless cups of coffee,

it all finally paid off, didn't it? (:

It's been awhile since I felt this way..

it does. it really does. (:

love,

mellie..

Satisfied.

Into Your hands..

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

and lean not on your own understanding,

in ALL your ways, acknowledge Him,

and He shall direct your paths.

He is by my side.

Hidden emotions, it all lies deep within..

there's absolutely no way to run and hide from what's ahead of us.

this, is life.

The road not taken.

It was four years back,

I took a whole new turn in my life.

Everything changed. I wasn't who I was before.

My circle of friends was different too.

Slowly yet silently, I began to part ways with my old life,

the vulgarity i once had, vanished into thin air,

I began to work hard for the things i desire,

I knew I had a dream i needed to achieve.

Years went by, indeed, things improved.

but, until the last and final year,

things began to slow down,

I constantly questioned myself,

"what is going on with me?"

I knew I can't afford to let go of the things that I've achieved and yet to achieve.

I knew I needed to press on,

It got better for awhile back then,

I heaved a sigh of relief.

I thought things would resume just like yesterday's.

but, no.

As a new beginning usher itself into my life,

my life took another drastic 180 degree turn,

I knew the turn i took was a wrong turn,

everything good around me begin to dwindle,

Before i could grasp fully what was actually happening,

my life was beginning to stumble,

i was falling so badly, I doubt i could pick myself up once more,

Have i taken the wrong path once more? Have i gone back to be who I was four years back?

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I may not be the girl you once knew.

An endless road..

Bonjour!

sorry for the lack of updates.

Anyways, Class pictures from the past week.

enjoy. :)

Of upper limbs. :)

the rebellious preppy school girl.

Miss Principal, Mr. Justin, Miss Rebellious.

Plaster. Waitress . Waiter. Stripper.

Mr. Iggy & Mr. Lim.



Hui. Fiona.

Mr.Ang.

She was OBVIOUSLY trying to seduce Mr.Principle.

a pretty nice picture, ruined by Yu fai. :P

they were ALL smiling, and u just decided to turn away.

How could you?!

last but definitely not the least,

our photographer, Miss Alicia Yeo.

The week went by like lightning,

I am still trying to grasp what had happened in the past week.

Would anybody like to fill me in on the deeetails?

So, SAM fiesta and INTI's green evolution campaign ended within a split second.

I can say, our crew performed well.

Yes, we did have our share of arguements and disagreements.

but, we still did it together as one crew, and, thats what matters the most.

still looking forward to work together with this crew of ours. :)

oh, and, sheng, you lead us well.

by the way, have i mentioned that I'm having a week's break from college?

but, I don't think I'll be getting much out of this break though. damn.

assignments are killing every single living cell in my body,

chemistry,physics,ESL, and bio outlines, 3 LAN assignments, and math homework.

oh, isn't this just so 'awesome'?

seriously, I don't see the point of giving us breaks,

If we're just gonna be flooded with assignments.

yes, i know. Its our responsibility, but, doesn't this just defeats the whole purpose?

oh boy. i need SUGAR, badly.

slurpee anyone? ;)

CRAP!

I now understand something I've understood all my life, but in a new way.

here's to a spanking brand NEW day. :)

*thumbs up*

let's just hope the day gets better.

oh yes, indeed.

GREAT!

everything just DIED on me.

when all things fail,.

where can i run for support?