You're the apple of HIS eye.

Do you still carry the same spirit and enthusiasm you've carried in you when you were way younger?
Do you still believe in what you used to believe in when you were a little kid?

I'm not a person who falls ill easily,
or so i thought.
Did this happen for a reason?
Being physically attacked by viruses
actually got me thinking deeper and harder about the uncertainties,
and circumstances that seem to knock me out one after another.
I thought that things would be a smooth sail ahead, but seriously,
WHAT WAS HAPPENING?
Had a short chat with mum yesterday and she spoke right through my heart,
in fact, it could be right through my very soul.
It was then that I realized,
The constant promises and principals I thought I had held on to,
have actually passed me by not once, not twice, but countless time.
Who was I to blame?
Nobody, but myself.
I've opened doors, and allow this small yet important events to slip by me,
without realizing the heavy consequences I had to bear,
time and again, the same thing repeats itself,
but, each time with a greater lesson to learn, but to no avail,
I failed to realize the mistakes I've made over and over again.
I was highly ignorant,
and, I never learned.
Many times, I would push them aside,
always hoping that mum and dad would be there to bring me out of all these.
Initially, they did.
But, it was not for long that I grew,
I grew out of my comfort zone,
I grew up,
Old enough to not rely on my them for help,
old enough to cry and not expect to be comforted with sweets,
and, most of all, old enough to carry up my own responsibilities
and bear every circumstances in life.
But, I never learned.
It is when, life is at its lowest point,
I begin to realize, all the mistakes I've made,
all the people I've hurt, all the time I've wasted,
Through it all, I knew that I've neglected ONE person.
I've ditched him when life's all up and going,
I've depended on EVERYTHING ELSE but that ONE person.
Only when life is screwed, I run aimlessly back to Him like a baby,
crying for help, hoping for a miracle,
throwing every empty promise to that ONE person just to be saved.
For every normal human being, I'd probably expect to be ditched back in return,
to be hated for the nasty treatments I've given and perhaps be looked down for the things I've done.
but, no. this ONE person never fails to be there in times of happiness or sorrow,
He was and always will be Loyal and sincere, no matter what the circumstances may be.
He never looked down on me, neither at the mistakes I've repeated time and again.
He always brought peace and tranquillity in times of trouble and comforted me in ways I can never encounter with others.
There is NO ONE more perfect other than Him.
No one more loving, and caring than Him.
and, because He never fails, You know that you will be safe in His hands.
He is sovereign, He is God.

Is it too late to realize that I've trespass the forbidden path?
Will He still take my hand and bring me out of this calamity like He used to when I was younger?
Will He still turned my mourning into dancing? My sorrow into joy?

I believe He still will.
because, I'm His child and He is my Daddy.

I'm truly blessed that I've finally found that missing puzzle in my life,
have you?

best wishes,
mell.

P.S : will be going on a short hiatus.
til' then, readers.
loves.